I have been thinking about this a lot lately. I don't really fit in anywhere. I don't have a close friend near by. I have a few close long distance friends, maybe that is why because we are not near. I have prayed for years for a close friend but God has not sent one. I don't know why but that is ok. I have a lot on my plate with little ones and schooling. But back to fitting in I just don't fit in anywhere. I think I would like to but most days it really doesn't bother me. I have never really fit in for long anywhere. Plus when I was younger I made a lot of mistakes trying to fit in. So I am not sure fitting in is all it's cracked up to be.
Of course I have to wonder if it is me. Especially when I have a hormonal emotional week like last week. I mean why does no one want more than friendly surface conversation. I want deep meaty conversation. I want someone I can tell my deepest fears and desires. I want someone I can call at the drop of a hat, or they can call me, and we would be there for each other.
I guess people are just busy.
I am really ok with not having a close friend but sometimes I wonder...
3 comments:
you'll ALL WAYS fit in in with me! I LOVE you mom!
It would be great if you still lived close to me. It is hard to find christian friends. I am blessed to have sisters (who are christians) If you still lived here, then we would all be your friends!!!! Then, whenever I wanted I could say, "hmmm, I want to see the kids today," and run over to see you guys. That would be GREAT!!! I know we don't talk much. Life is busy, although if I were organized it wouldn't be so bad. We need to talk more! I love you guys!!!
((((HUGS)))) You'll always be my friend!
Blessings,
Dawn
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