Missing people

Ok so I heard the Christmas Shoes song tonight. It is V's favorite song but it makes me cry. Probably because I have lost a mother and fathers.
So it got me to thinking how much I miss my step mom. She has been dead over 21 years. She died in child birth. Since I am missing her so much here are some memories I have of her.

She loved Christmas. She did everything she could to make it special for us. She would buy us gifts and try very hard to surprise us. She would wrap the presents so beautiful. They looked like you had paid a pro to wrap them. I used to ask her why she did that since we were going to rip them open on Christmas morning, but she didn't care she wanted them to look beautiful.

We also always got a live tree. I hated going to pick out the tree. It was always cold but she loved it and loved getting just the right one and then decorating it.

I loved my step mother very much but you know I don't think she knew that. I mean I know she knew I loved her but I was sometimes a bratty rebellious teen. Of course when she was pregnant with my little sister I was older and married so we had a good relationship then. I wish I had been more grateful and nicer when I was younger.

She was a lot of fun. Very easy to play a prank on and such a good sport. She loved the beach and we went every year. We would have so much fun on vacation.

She always made sure we had the nicest clothes and the newest fashion. She worked very hard, swing shift too which was hard on her body.

When she was pregnant with my little sister she was very sick with morning sickness. I was planning my wedding during this time. She was so excited to help. She was like a little kid planning it. She even found the dress for me before I ever went looking. You know she was right it was the perfect dress when I saw it I knew.
The day of my wedding she was well enough to attend and even have a good time. I am so thankful for that. We did some of the planning from her bed because the morning sickness was so bad.

I miss her some times so much. She loved children and would have loved all the grandchildren. I can imagine how much she would spoil them.
This time of year makes me miss her even more because Christmas was so special to her.

Take the time to spend extra time with loved ones this Christmas and let them know how you feel before it is too late.